Tuesday, March 31, 2020

Though: I hate Myself


I always said "I hate myself". I hate being myself that to much extrovert, I hate it when I choose to be quite, people tend to say "This is not you". I hate myself when I try to ensure what people said can be done, but end up the person disappears, but still I keep repeat. I hate when I caring too much but they do not care. I hate when I think they are my friend but the real is not.  I hate when I try to take care of their hearts until I forgot mine.



Some people said, "I want to be you", "You have everything", "You can speak with everyone", "You can do everything". Deep inside in my mind, I think it is hard. I need to keep maintain with people expectation. I need to ensure my performance is good. I need be the best. 

Yes, I am being myself, but sometimes I always think what other people think. I am scared but I need rest from be what people expect.

When people said , Being me is the best. I said it is wrong, I hate myself.


Am I wrong for having all of this feelings?  

Saturday, March 14, 2020

Selepas SPM, mana hala tuju



Seperti yang kita ketahui, beberapa hari yang lepas baru sahaja adik adik #SPM2020 dapat keputusan SPM. Oleh itu, Nadia ucapkan tahniah buat semua warga #SPM2020 dengan keputusan yang anda peroleh. Tolak tepi lah dengan insan-insan yang cakap “Bila masuk U, A dah tak pandang dah”. Pedulikan sebab sekarang adalah masa untuk korang meraikan dengan apa-apa pun keputusan yang korang dapat !

Baiklah balik pada topik dan tajuk besar kita, “Selepas SPM, mana hala tuju yang patut dipilih?”. Baiklah kali ni post ni Nadia buat untuk menjawab beberapa soalan yang lazim ditanya adik-adik SPM2020 kita [tapi diingatkan sekali lagi, Nadia menjawab berdasarkan pengalaman Nadia dengan SPM aliran sains, mungkin perkongsian ini tidak beberapa sesuai untuk pelajar yang SPM nya bukan aliran sains ]